"I Wanna Come Home"

My darling husband told me he is listening to Micheal Buble tonight. He is listening to the song "Home."

May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
"I'm fine baby, how are you?"
Well I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

He told me that it fits how he feels right now and I couldn't agree more. I don't know if he knew this before now but when he was at Basic Training for the Army this album came out or I had just learned of it. I remember listening to this song thinking how true the words were in our lives at that point. We had only dated for two months before he left for Basic and I didn't date anyone while he was gone. For as long as he has been gone this time, was the same amount of time we were apart for Basic. It seems longer this time. A lot is different this time. Now I am not working 60 hours a week at an office to occupy my time with only small things to remind me of him from time to time during the day. Now I am home working 168 hours a week where EVERYTHING reminds me of him. His house, his cars, his clothes, his babies, his bed, his cologne, his everything. I see it every day and think of him 'too far from where I am.' At times it breaks my heart to think of what is actually going on. Most days I let myself smell his Polo or Banana Republic cologne and miss him for 10 minutes. That's all then I have to push it out of my mind. This is probably what most wives of military men do, if not I don't know how they get through the day.

While my love is listening to this song, thinking of us at home, I hope that he knows I am thinking of him, so far away. I long for his loving presence in our home, I miss his handsome face and ache for his strong embrace.

~I'll see you soon my Darling~