My First Post

Well I decided that I would make a blog for my thoughts and feelings right now. The reasons I want do this are that for starters, I type like the wind and I write like...well, slow. So I don't keep a journal. Second, I want to do this because I am slightly annoyed about Facebook and status updates. Sometimes there is something on my mind that I want to say but I am afraid of saying it because I don't want to offend anyone or say something crass or whatever. I also think it's a bit lame to put something on FB that you think or whatever because maybe I don't want 300ish people to read it. I don't know, for some reason I am not a huge fan of posting stuff on FB. Lastly, I will probably be brutally honest on this blog so I am warning everyone who will read this (probably just my sister) that it may get crazy or rude. I don't really think that FB is the place to be so honestly rude so I have decided that I will do this blog. I apologize in advance for anyone that I may offend but I will give an honest effort not to be too snotty. It may not last but I would like it to so I can keep record of what I am feeling.

In that spirit, I want to start my blog by saying only one simple sentence: I LOVE NAPS. I don't nap myself, I have a hard time sleeping during the day and it's a rare occasion that I do. I am talking about naps for my girls. I will be honest and say that I really look forward to when the baby naps. She is wonderful, so pleasant and usually so well-behaved. She truly is a tender mercy of the Lord. However, that being said, I look forward when she is sleeping so I can do some stuff that I want to do. Right now for example, she is napping and I am blogging. She has a good schedule right now where she wakes up at about 8:00 eats and plays then goes down for a nap at 10:00 and sleeps until about 1:00 then she is up, eating and playing again until about 2:30 then down for another nap until about 4:30 or 5:00. Up, eating playing again until 7:00 when she likes to go to bed. She usually sleeps through the night without waking up even once. {You probably want to kill me now} Her schedule is far more intense than Kate's was. She is very different from Kate. Charlee likes her naps, she likes her sleep and when she is off her schedule, she isn't very happy. I think that a lot of it has to do that with Kate I worked part time, so I was out and about a lot more with her. She was at various homes for babysitting and such so it was crazy that way. It is also very easy to haul around just one kid. This is not the case with two, it's much harder. Also with Kate I didn't really know the value of sleep. I am paying for that now with her and I feel bad that I wasn't the same with her as I am with Charlee. Also, a lot of what I do with Charlee has to do with survival. I would not be able to get up with her a few times during the night and still get through my days with sanity. I honestly believe that the Lord knows this about me and has blessed me with this little love bug so that I can maintain my sanity. I am grateful for this. My love is away and he is in every way my companion. He is the best father anyone could ask for and is so good to help when I need him most. He is away and I am alone so the merciful Lord blessed me with Charlee. I used to be the person that said "Oh I will never let my life around my kids' schedule." Uh, yes I am that person exactly. I have to to keep my cool. Adding that last "I'll never" is on the long long list of things I said I would never do that I find myself doing more and more. It's funny how the longer I am alive, the more I add to that list and I will probably never stop.

I am not planning for all posts to be this long. So here's to hoping that I can be brief.

~Until my next thought~